WOW! i pretty much forgot about this blog, well, im sorry people. I guess, 2009 summer was pretty interesting and pretty good and perfect and amazing and wow, its undescribable. But, it was also a heartbreak. I have so much to tell you, its super long, but, i dont really have enough time to describe it... but, anywho, when i do have some time i will i promise! I'm at school right now and i really don't have time to be on here but I wanted to update this just to proove that i still exist and that this blog is still going up and running! =) well, its almost been a year since my last post, wow, look what love and relationships can do! right? you all agree, relationships sometimes ruin things, sometimes makes things wonderful and amazing, but it's sometimes selfish... =( sorry guys. =) well, i have to go, I'll tell you about everything in a different time.
Love and Rockets, Ceej. ♥
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Old School
wow... well hi. school is getting a bit old; by the way i live it up. Well the way we five live it up. I'll start at the beginning of my day.
When i woke up i was so tired, once again i was up late doing laundry again. Yes i love my clothes freshly clean and that scent i always love. Well, when my step mom; actually im going ot explain my life style right now. I live with my little sisters mom Benalda. My little sisters name is Maggie and i live with them because i dont feel like living in the country in the middle of nowhere with my father (Winston) and his wife (Anne). My mother (Evie) lives in Manitoba in reservation called Keeseekowenin. My sister Tricia lives with my mother since her house isnt finished yet. My sister Tarra lives in Winnipeg working for the government and my brother Emery lives in Regina with his girlfriend (Samantha) and son Riel. MY sister Tricia has a little girl; her names Essence and Tricias boyfriend is Nicholas. My other brother Valdez lives in Whitewood with my auntie Chyrell. i am blessed to have such a huge loving family. i love them for life and am deffinatly grateful to have them in my life. Tarra, Tricia, Valdez, and me are my moms. Emery, Valdez, Maggie, and me are with my dad. Tarra and Tricia have the same dad; Emery, Valdez, Maggie, and me all have the same dad but Emery and Maggie have different moms. Just Valdez and me have the same mom and dad. Its really complicating but i hope you guys get my family tree... if not, well; too bad.
Back to this morning.
I didnt want to get up at first when Benalda came into my room and woke me up; yes i still need someone to wake me up. Doesnt everyone? Anyways; i was so tired i just about almost fell asleep again, so i just laid there trying to wake myself up. After my shower i got ready for the day; looking nerdy as always. Thats my look, Nerdy. I have short hair but i still need a hair straightener since my side bangs or burns are a bit long and they curl out which i sont like. I have a fawx hawk now. Before my hair was so long, it was really really weird! like i looked so... so... so RONCHY! i mean, long hair on others may look good but once you cut it and style it the way you want it; you realize you made a fool of yourself looking (stereotype) "emo". For the first time i didnt burn myself with ym straightner! yay me! On the bus to school i was listening to my music on my cell phone; my playlist was just Taylor Swift today. I personally think Taylor Swift is a gift. Shes so talented and i look up to her. At school we had gym first thing. Which was a blast; not really but it was good since im really good at volleyball and thats what we played. I love volleyball, its my sport. After that we had ELA 10 which was an easy class since all i did was sleep. Yes, its bad but i needed my rest. So i chose that class to do so; since there was a blanket and a counter in the corner. The teacher said she doesnt care what we do cause its our fault if we flunk the class. Honestly im sitting at a 47 percent in that class but she said i should be an 80 percent student but she also said im just lazy to do my work. the works easy. it is. i just dont like doing easy things cause im bored of it. sounds stupid right? exactly. well, i skipped math class cause i already know i flunked that class right off the bat. My mark on that class is... 14. HORRIBLE! HORRIBLE! HORRIBLE! i hate math, its eays but i hate it. its the worst ever but i need it for alot of things in life. So thats why im taking summer school for it =(. Just great! there goes my planned out summer... I skipped math because i went to go for lunch extra early but ended up drinking. Yes... i cam to school drunk. Im just getting over it now but i have to say it was fun! but now im feeling sick. Thomas, Percy and me drank half a bottle of this Absenta or whatever it was called; it was horrible cause there was 70% alchohol in it. So i was pretty messed up. Crack A Bottle! =) Kirk was pushing me around and hitting me and everything which felt really weird since i was staggering around enough. First time i ever came to school drunk. i guess i just dont care now that its the end of the school year but still, i dont get out till the 29. Cant Wait. At last break we went back to Thomas' truck and drank the rest of it but now its wearing off but not in a good way. In the sick hang over way.
Anyways... i have baseball at 6 tonight. But i want to go to Gym night. my days are planned out as it is. But i want to go to baseball since its so much fun and i havent played since thursday. I've been doing some photoshoots too, i dont know if there good ones or ameture ones. i hope there pro ones. ill probably upload them on. I love pictures and i love taking them. And i love modeling off every camera. I love it.
P.S. where it says labels for this post, im putting a song. its like; the song of the day. Just to let you all know. thats what im doing.
When i woke up i was so tired, once again i was up late doing laundry again. Yes i love my clothes freshly clean and that scent i always love. Well, when my step mom; actually im going ot explain my life style right now. I live with my little sisters mom Benalda. My little sisters name is Maggie and i live with them because i dont feel like living in the country in the middle of nowhere with my father (Winston) and his wife (Anne). My mother (Evie) lives in Manitoba in reservation called Keeseekowenin. My sister Tricia lives with my mother since her house isnt finished yet. My sister Tarra lives in Winnipeg working for the government and my brother Emery lives in Regina with his girlfriend (Samantha) and son Riel. MY sister Tricia has a little girl; her names Essence and Tricias boyfriend is Nicholas. My other brother Valdez lives in Whitewood with my auntie Chyrell. i am blessed to have such a huge loving family. i love them for life and am deffinatly grateful to have them in my life. Tarra, Tricia, Valdez, and me are my moms. Emery, Valdez, Maggie, and me are with my dad. Tarra and Tricia have the same dad; Emery, Valdez, Maggie, and me all have the same dad but Emery and Maggie have different moms. Just Valdez and me have the same mom and dad. Its really complicating but i hope you guys get my family tree... if not, well; too bad.
Back to this morning.
I didnt want to get up at first when Benalda came into my room and woke me up; yes i still need someone to wake me up. Doesnt everyone? Anyways; i was so tired i just about almost fell asleep again, so i just laid there trying to wake myself up. After my shower i got ready for the day; looking nerdy as always. Thats my look, Nerdy. I have short hair but i still need a hair straightener since my side bangs or burns are a bit long and they curl out which i sont like. I have a fawx hawk now. Before my hair was so long, it was really really weird! like i looked so... so... so RONCHY! i mean, long hair on others may look good but once you cut it and style it the way you want it; you realize you made a fool of yourself looking (stereotype) "emo". For the first time i didnt burn myself with ym straightner! yay me! On the bus to school i was listening to my music on my cell phone; my playlist was just Taylor Swift today. I personally think Taylor Swift is a gift. Shes so talented and i look up to her. At school we had gym first thing. Which was a blast; not really but it was good since im really good at volleyball and thats what we played. I love volleyball, its my sport. After that we had ELA 10 which was an easy class since all i did was sleep. Yes, its bad but i needed my rest. So i chose that class to do so; since there was a blanket and a counter in the corner. The teacher said she doesnt care what we do cause its our fault if we flunk the class. Honestly im sitting at a 47 percent in that class but she said i should be an 80 percent student but she also said im just lazy to do my work. the works easy. it is. i just dont like doing easy things cause im bored of it. sounds stupid right? exactly. well, i skipped math class cause i already know i flunked that class right off the bat. My mark on that class is... 14. HORRIBLE! HORRIBLE! HORRIBLE! i hate math, its eays but i hate it. its the worst ever but i need it for alot of things in life. So thats why im taking summer school for it =(. Just great! there goes my planned out summer... I skipped math because i went to go for lunch extra early but ended up drinking. Yes... i cam to school drunk. Im just getting over it now but i have to say it was fun! but now im feeling sick. Thomas, Percy and me drank half a bottle of this Absenta or whatever it was called; it was horrible cause there was 70% alchohol in it. So i was pretty messed up. Crack A Bottle! =) Kirk was pushing me around and hitting me and everything which felt really weird since i was staggering around enough. First time i ever came to school drunk. i guess i just dont care now that its the end of the school year but still, i dont get out till the 29. Cant Wait. At last break we went back to Thomas' truck and drank the rest of it but now its wearing off but not in a good way. In the sick hang over way.
Anyways... i have baseball at 6 tonight. But i want to go to Gym night. my days are planned out as it is. But i want to go to baseball since its so much fun and i havent played since thursday. I've been doing some photoshoots too, i dont know if there good ones or ameture ones. i hope there pro ones. ill probably upload them on. I love pictures and i love taking them. And i love modeling off every camera. I love it.
P.S. where it says labels for this post, im putting a song. its like; the song of the day. Just to let you all know. thats what im doing.
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
my first.
Well hi. Today im in school having i guess a blast? well today nothing new happened except for when i learned how to rope; rope as in cowboy stuff. its interesting and i thought it would be easy but thats just how it looks.
I didnt want to wake up this morning cause i stayed up all night doing laundry and that was so boring; but at least i have fresh clean clothes that came out of all that time well wasted. this mornign while getting ready i burnt myself on this stupid hair straightner! Now theres this red brownish line on my forehead which looks disgusting by the way. Anywho, today i didnt eat again; i probably should eat sometime since im down to 130 lb. Starting of the weekend i was 140... I can drop weight like its nothing which i find sick since im so skinny and yet i dont even look like im capable of having 130 pounds on me! Whatever, its high matabilism. i also hate when people say im annorexic, thats the farthest thing from what i am!
I should feel guilty for what happened yesterday at school; i tripped my friend and she messed up her knee. I felt so bad like as if someone just stabbed me and that sharp pain takes over and it hurts. thats what i felt. i didnt mean to trip her, i mean, i tried kicking the ball but ended up kicking her and tripping her. thats not even the worst part; everyone laughed and made fun of her and called her down, saying whatever to humiliate her. that was and far worst the meanest thing i ever did. I still feel bad.
Im in computer class right now, just got bugged by Kirk, hes just some boy who always hits me and consistently bugs me. its fun at sometimes but most times it gets out of hand but i laugh even though it hurts when he hits me. Hes awesome though... sometimes i think he just dislikes me and pretends to be my friend just to mean on me...? Possibly. I really hate having friends that use you for things that dont matter. I can be real bitchy but thats only cause some prick has to ruin everything for me. that Prick could be anyone, not hinting either.
I finally found my lost and favourite song ever. Dont let it go to your head by fefe dobson. its old but its such a great song. the lyrics fit my life perfectly and its just amazing. no matter what its a song i cant get over now. i should feel angry or sad after listening to this song but im not. i dont see why it matters so much to me anyways.
I never checked my facebook in forever which i should since it hasnt been updated in forever. for about a week but i cant because my internet on my cell phone got cut off because of some stupid error and in computer class, facebooks blocked off! we should have a sit in or a riot; totally kidding but i would do that anyday to be stupid. But thats just me. I really hope i passed my Grammer test!
I didnt want to wake up this morning cause i stayed up all night doing laundry and that was so boring; but at least i have fresh clean clothes that came out of all that time well wasted. this mornign while getting ready i burnt myself on this stupid hair straightner! Now theres this red brownish line on my forehead which looks disgusting by the way. Anywho, today i didnt eat again; i probably should eat sometime since im down to 130 lb. Starting of the weekend i was 140... I can drop weight like its nothing which i find sick since im so skinny and yet i dont even look like im capable of having 130 pounds on me! Whatever, its high matabilism. i also hate when people say im annorexic, thats the farthest thing from what i am!
I should feel guilty for what happened yesterday at school; i tripped my friend and she messed up her knee. I felt so bad like as if someone just stabbed me and that sharp pain takes over and it hurts. thats what i felt. i didnt mean to trip her, i mean, i tried kicking the ball but ended up kicking her and tripping her. thats not even the worst part; everyone laughed and made fun of her and called her down, saying whatever to humiliate her. that was and far worst the meanest thing i ever did. I still feel bad.
Im in computer class right now, just got bugged by Kirk, hes just some boy who always hits me and consistently bugs me. its fun at sometimes but most times it gets out of hand but i laugh even though it hurts when he hits me. Hes awesome though... sometimes i think he just dislikes me and pretends to be my friend just to mean on me...? Possibly. I really hate having friends that use you for things that dont matter. I can be real bitchy but thats only cause some prick has to ruin everything for me. that Prick could be anyone, not hinting either.
I finally found my lost and favourite song ever. Dont let it go to your head by fefe dobson. its old but its such a great song. the lyrics fit my life perfectly and its just amazing. no matter what its a song i cant get over now. i should feel angry or sad after listening to this song but im not. i dont see why it matters so much to me anyways.
I never checked my facebook in forever which i should since it hasnt been updated in forever. for about a week but i cant because my internet on my cell phone got cut off because of some stupid error and in computer class, facebooks blocked off! we should have a sit in or a riot; totally kidding but i would do that anyday to be stupid. But thats just me. I really hope i passed my Grammer test!
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